Monday, September 14, 2009

Oh 2ww I have missed you

I know, it's been forever since I posted. Things have just gotten so hectic, both at home and at work and I barely find time to check my email much less write anything here.

The big news is that I'm in the 2ww and actually have something to wait for. It took a long time for my cycles to get back to something resembling normal after having QT but I think I'm just about there now. Couple that, along with almost being done taking the Coumadin and it equals going back to trying to conceive. According to Fertility Friend I've ovulated and should wait until the 23rd to test to see if I am pregnant. Of course, between now and then I will obsess about every little thing. Yesterday I had heartburn and so I wondered if that might mean that I'm pregnant as I tend to only have heartburn when I'm pregnant. Today I seemed to have a very strong sense of smell and so those same thoughts starting creeping in. It's super exciting and at the same time it's brings the worry about what if I don't get pregnant, how long might it take, what if we need to do more fertility treatments, what if we can't afford more treatments, etc. Right now I'm just taking it one day at a time and trying not to think too far into the future. It's easier to do that this time around than last because I know that we have one little frozen embryo waiting for us and so I know at the very least will will be able to do a frozen transfer and have a chance at success.