Thursday, August 30, 2012

Summer Lovin'

I can't believe that the summer is almost over and that SB has returned to school already. QT starts school next week and although I'm excited for her to start on a brand new adventure, I sometimes sit back and wonder how it is that I have two children old enough to be in school. As I've said before, the days are long but the years are short. I look around at the women I work with and think about how their kids are heading off to college or embarking on new marriages and careers and I think before I know it that will be my kids doing those things. I want to keep them safe and small and cute and at the same time I love watching them grow and mature into their own personalities and little persons.

Things are a bit hectic right now what with it being back to school time. I managed to make things even more hectic by attending an out of town business conference two weeks ago and taking a week off for a family vacation last week. We went back to the same house we rented in Eagle River, WI last year and had a great time. The kids got to spend time playing in the sand, swimming in the lake, roasting marshmallows at a campfire, playing with their grandparents, taking boating and fishing trips, driving go karts, taking a train ride and even taking a ride on a pirate ship. Good times were had by all, except that I can assure you that having a week off from work was NOT a vacation. I think I did more work while on vacation than I do in my average week of working at my job. Sully was up by 5:45 ever day demanding Baby Mum Mums and I stayed up later than usual at night so my tiredness level has escalated to an all-time high.

We got home late Saturday afternoon and I spent the better part of Saturday night and Sunday unpacking and doing laundry in preparation for SB returning to school on Monday and my return to work on Monday.

Did you know I'm having another baby? Yes, of course you do, as do I, but I'll be honest in that the full reality of that hasn't quite hit me yet. I realized the other day that within three months I will have a newborn and a total of four children and it's still just not something I can wrap my head around. I feel like a broken record of worries - is the baby okay? how will we ever have enough money to raise four children? where will they all fit in our little house? what if I go into labor and it's too quick and I can't make it to the hospital? what if I develop another blood clot? why am I getting so many headaches, is it pre-e? how will I ever have enough time to give each child enough attention? things are so disorganized now how can I even think about adding another baby? and so on and so on and so on.

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