Sunday, July 26, 2009

Is that really my butt??????

After I had SB I noticed a distinct change in the distribution of fat on my body. Instead of it just hanging out on my lower stomach it seemed to migrate to my upper stomach, my butt and my thighs. I can remember that in those first few months after having him I would sometimes think that I could actually feel the fat growing on my thighs. So much for that whole notion of breast feeding helping you to lose weight. I can't say that I've felt the same way now that I've had QT but although I haven't felt anything I can see it. Right now, today, I weigh less than I did when I got pregnant with QT and yet my butt is quite a bit bigger. Yesterday I took SB to the air show down at the lakefront. It was a mommy and me day for him as my mom took care of QT. We had fun just walking around, sitting and watching the planes and eating ice-cream. On our long trek back to the car we passed by some glass office buildings and I did a double take to make sure the fat woman I saw in the glass was really my reflection. Everything, and I mean everything, was giggling. When I get dressed in the morning I look in the mirror and don't think that the front view is too bad, or the back view but the side view is hard to take and my reflection was the side view and it was moving. It was a depressing moment and a horrible end to what had been a very enjoyable afternoon. All this begs the question what am I going to do about it?

1 comment:

my hope my faith my love said...

I am having those days too and BFing is not helping the situation