Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Long time no write

Things seemed to get really busy really fast. First, we took our first official family vacation. We rented a cabin in Northern Wisconsin and spent a cold, rainy, chilly week wishing the weather would have been better. It was still fun though. QT really enjoyed hanging out on the dock and putting his fishing pole into the water. I figured I would be able to update upon our return but things have just gotten out of hand. First, I was getting pretty sick pretty often and that just took all the energy out of me. I finally gave in and called my doctor begging for some anti-nausea meds. He prescribed Zofran and so far I'm getting by on taking one pill in the morning. It seems to be helping although I'm still gaggy at times but that sure beats throwing up everything I eat. The Zofran came just at the right time as we had a birthday party for QT's second birthday. I can't believe my little boy is already two. Where does the time go?

There's no real big baby news. My "big" ultrasound is scheduled for the 21st so that is giving me something to look forward to. I've made zero progress on even making any decisions regarding moving QT to his big boy room. I keep saying that I don't want to decide anything until we find out if we're having another boy, but just between you and me, I have just been too lazy to make the decisions. My big accomplishment this past weekend was sorting through all of his summer clothes and boxing them up. Doing so made me think about what it would be like if we find out that we're having a girl. I've always said that it doesn't matter to me because really all I want is another baby. But, now I'm thinking that somewhere I've just always assumed that this baby would be another boy. I will still be thrilled either way, but feel as though I'll need some time to adjust my thoughts to all things girlie.

In possible future baby news I got some bad news yesterday. My current insurance provides for two IVF cycles. We were lucky enough to have our first try work and were planning on trying another cycle about six months after this baby is born. Well, yesterday I arrived home to a letter from wonderful, kind and caring United Healthcare saying that as of January 1, 2009, IVF will no longer be an offered benefit. I know it's silly for me to be sad about this but I am because it seriously reduces our chances of ever having more children, and they were pretty low chances to start with. Growing up I always envisioned myself having a bunch of kids, at least four, if not more. I love big family dinners and the thought of all my kids growing up together and returning home for holidays, etc. Two children are a blessing beyond belief so I shouldn't really be selfish but it is hard to give up your dream of how you thought your life would be.

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