Please No NICU

The other day I was reading another blog and saw the picture of a mom holding her newly born baby in her arms while lying in the hospital bed. I want those pictures! I want to give birth and then be able to hold my child and not have him wisked away to the NICU. I want to be able to stay in bed and hold him instead of having to waddle downstairs, get buzzed into the NICU and sit next to an isolette. I want visitors to be able to come to my room and visit instead of having to visit my baby in the NICU. I know it's silly to feel like I missed out on something with QT's birth and that I should just be thankful that I have a healthy baby boy and yet, when I see pictures like that it makes me want the "normal" experience that much more with this baby. And so I declare NO NICU this time around.