Monday, June 23, 2008

Three Little Birds

Rough day at work today. That's just something I don't need on top of the stress of an ivf cycle.

This morning I applied three estrogen patches to my stomach. By the time I got to work I wasn't feeling so great. I'm tired, exhausted really, and am having digestion issues. I'm assuming all of this is a result of the progesterone and now the added estrogen. If I'm pregnant that's fine, I can deal with whatever comes my way but if I'm not..........well, I don't want to go there.

Do you believe in signs? Sometimes I do. On Thursday when we got the news that the transfer would be that day I was really worried. We dropped QT off at my parent's house and got in the car to drive to the clinic and Bob Marley's Three Little Birds was playing on the radio. We turned it on just in time to hear "everything gonna be alright." I took it as a sign and it made me feel better. On Saturday I had a great lunch with some women who are also have trouble conceiving, although everyone but me was having trouble trying to conceive their first. During lunch we were discussing infertility and low and behold Three Little Birds came on. I couldn't help but take that as a sign. So, I'm going to try and break out of this funk I'm in right now and just keep that reggae beat in my head and the knowledge that everything is really going to be alright.

I did another test this morning and stark white negative. I'm still not totally trusting the cheapie tests but I think the trigger may really be gone. Today is nine days past so that would make sense.


my hope my faith my love said...

My fingers are crossed for YOU!!!!

Can I ask why you are on estrogen patches? Was your E2 low after the ET? Mine was low after I Oed this cycle, There is no info out there on what they do for that.

my hope my faith my love said...

Thanks! Will be asking my DR about supplementing my estrogen next cycle.