Can you be happy and sad all at the same time? I think that's possible. You could be happy to get a promotion but sad that it means you will have to move. You could be happy to find out that someone else is pregnant but still sad that it isn't you. This is the way I've been feeling lately. I know many women who are trying to get pregnant and each time one of them announces their success I am thrilled for them but sad for myself. I want to be pregnant again.
So, the trip to New York was wonderful with the exception of getting many, many blisters on my feet and also getting my period right during the Van Morrison concert. I was disappointed but not devasted. I think being on a mini-vacation really helped. Maybe I should start doing that every month! Anyway, it was a whirlwind trip. Saturday we walked around Soho and had dinner at a very tiny (six tables total) Spanish restaraunt followed by lots more walking and dessert at a 24 hour bakery. Sunday we headed in the city and hit the Empire State Building, Grand Central Terminal, Rockefeller Center, Top of the Rock, Tiffany's and finally Central Park.
Sunday night was the Van Morission concert which was exquisite. I've now seen Van five times and although this wasn't my favorite show, I'd probably rank it second. Van's music just has a way of making me feel at peace with the world. Who knew that a short, chubby, balding man could have such an effect?
My doctor upped the dosage of Clomid for this cycle so I'm now at 100mg. He also said that it would be okay to try to on days 3-7 instead of 5-9. Well, I've been researching Clomid for months and months now and have turned up a study that shows great results with taking it on days 1-5. It seems a bit crazy to take it so early but it was soooo tempting to do so after reading the study and I gave in to temptation. I took the last dose on Friday and am now just waiting to ovulate. I've pulled out all the stops this cycle. I am charting my temperatures, using my Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor, I bought an OvWatch and am using that, I'm taking the traditional Chinese herbs, getting acupuncture, taking a million supplements, drinking green tea, using ovulation predictor sticks and trying like heck to cut out caffeine and junky food. I'm falling short in that department though. I've traded my morning coffee for green tea but I just can't seem to get my diet in order. To my credit, I did bump up my fruit consumption last week but I still ate a whole lotta crap. Why isn't getting pregnant enough of a motivator for me?
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