Sunday, September 23, 2007

East vs West

So, after feeling pretty good over my plan for the next few months I've kind of done a turn around. I bought the book The Infertility Cure which is all about treating fertility issues with traditional Chinese medicine instead of Western medicines like Clomid. I started having acupuncture done last month so the idea of trying something alternative isn't new to me but am I ready to totally turn myself over to TCM? I don't know.

The other day I was in the car and a Billy Joel song came on and there was a phrase that just really hit me: " on the highway of regret." How many people get stuck on the highway of regret, always looking back and wondering if they made the right choices and wondering what could have been if only. I don't want to be on the regret highway so the choices I'm about to make I have to be completely sure of. I am thinking about setting a time frame for trying the alternative Chinese medicine and if I'm still not pregnant going back to taking the Clomid. It's just such a hard decision.

Another aspect of it is that the Eastern plan is actually harder. It requires changing my diet, giving up my glorious cheese, pasta and most meat. How can I live in Wisconsin and not eat cheese????? (For the record, although I love cheese, I have NEVER worn a foam piece of cheese on my head. I may live in Wisconsin but I'm not that crazy.) I've been battling my weight since I was a teenager so dieting is not a new concept and you'd think that it helping me get pregnant would be the perfect motivation, but I eat for comfort and when I'm stressed and I've been feeling that way a lot, specially each month when I find out that I'm not pregnant. What a vicious circle!

Let's discuss something none fertility and diet related - the new television season! This week so many shows come back and new ones start and all I can say is thank god for my DVR.

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